I don't wanna hang up.

you make me wanna leave the one I'm with, start a new relationship with you. That's what you do- Usher.

You love her, but you said you're falling for me? huh! How does that work?

xoxo

turn on the Last Song

I am sick of being caught up in my position. Fcuk you la! Seriously... Why did I let you in at the first place? I could have save myself all the trouble. Fcuk emotions!

I'm thinking bout everything that we've become, and I hate it, I thought we can make it. But I'm ready to jet it, just wanna forget about it.

Don't put up my head up on the clouds and make me feel like I'm floating. Cause honestly, time is all I need. Nobody can quite do it like I do, all my kisses and my loving.

we ride. xx.

was it something I did, or something You said?

Don't play games with me, like you know I'm gonna stay.

I try to keep it together cause I don't wanna fall apart... sometimes it wears you out being the tough chic out there, oh well... The world is cruel. Imma work my way! Sigh.

HS, I so need to take your advice seriosuly and embed it in my head over and over again, sometimes friends should really stick being friends ONLY. No good taking the next pace. Don't you think?

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I need to throw away all my procrastinating attitude. Like seriosuly! I need a rehab or maybe just need some early sleep. (LOOK wth am i doing here now?) See what I mean?

Class!!!! Tomorrow.. I am so coming! Rawrrr!!!!

xx

tell me if i'm INsane.

It has been long since i've been talking to Shreenath C.! I tell youuuu.... it was so good to finally have a decent talk with him... but still! It ain't enough!!! LOL... he has to go grocery shopping... i have to go see lee hong seng! Ishhh... and and... another person that i have not spoke and seen for more than 6 months! Deva sayang,..... imma call her now! Mummy.. phone bill! Watch out.. u're gonna explode! LOL... i Love being home.

Thanks darls for bringing me back. ILOVEYOU!

This morning, somehthing hit on my mind... i realised right... buddhist damn bad lo... they are such a big contributing factor to global warming. I know i know... im a damn buddhist myself... but i don feel offended at all lo.. facts hurt... but it still don't change anything right? I wanted to lecture mommy on it, but then she looks so stressed and pms-ing.. like anytime she's going to give me a piece of her mind. And so i kept all to myself, poor readers.. u guys have to suffer my blabber. LOL! Anyways... i was doing a presentation last week on global warming that;s why i'm making noise here... and right.. i sgtanding outside my house for a minute also can die dy..

Like in any second... im gonna explode... im at verge of melting... if im an ice,. no worst! I'r probably evaporfated till my last drop if im an ice. Damn i tell you... it's a lil too much heat for a human to handle. But still, ppl like you and me still on air conditioner at home like nobody's business. haih... classic case for humans.

REMEMBER! What goes around, comes back around.

=)

xx

firebomb!

Holla back to you ppl out there!

Honestly, you have an opinion from that immature thought of yours... please save it and keep it to yourself to avoid public humiliation and even obvious dumbness image of you.

Truth hurts, and it's never pretty.

Don't like what you see? Please shut those lids.

Don't like what you hear? Shut those ear drums.

Don't like what you taste? Kill those taste buds.

So don't bull shit with me alright? Deal with it!

ps. This marks the end of my emo sessions.

LOL! Reneeeee... i am no more your kaki.

XX

Things are as calm as the calm sea now... oh ocean, sea, beach.. which so ever you are... i love the way you mengolek golek with each other and form waves. Sad but true, i love you only because of the sound and effect that your dear cousin Wave produce. Wave....
Back to the topic, guess what la... suprised call received. Knew it by the tone when spoke, what is all the conversation is all about. I am so glad thou, you're the only one that can tame that wanna be and body that is full of lies, fakeness, judgemental attitude and etc. List can go on, but hey... this ain't a complaining post, now he sees you more than what he supposed to. You... all i can say is; Watch out. Your bubble is bursting anytime soon if you don't play it safe and smart. By the end of the day, drop that attitude and please realise everything started and ended because of your own actions and words. It's the cause and effect theory. Deal with it. =)

xx

I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.

I never needed pain. I never needed strain. I never needed words. I never needed hurt. Now guess what, it's a lil late for conversation and explanation, there isn't anything for you to say. It has been another great journey with pain in the end. but time kills all pain, i will just suffer at the beginning. So thank you for the pain, and the strain and tears altogether.

u're acting like u're oh-so-debonair

okay, lately i've been pms-ing and throwing tantrums like crazy. I pity boyfiee... anyways, most of the times, well sometimes it was because of him. and some other shite random stuff that i will relate to whatever that is happening and arguing with. Okay.. don't get my point? It's ok. LOL.. i talk inversely lately.

So anyway, last few nights i was so freaking pist with some matter, and he have to come interfere and talk crappie stuff and being dumb and irritating me. I kickid him outta his room, on my laptop and started writing an essay. Freak? I know. I really don't know what got into me. Haha! So what my erratic mind says is to, post up my drafted, spontaneous, filled with anger and crappie essay here.

...here goes...btw, it's x-rated.

Female is the word that is meant for the feminine life that is leaving on earth; Male is the word for the oh-so-masculine living beings on earth. It’s just two letters away from each other, and physically wise, female has the existence of two smart bombs hanging in front of their chest and a vagina, which males called them pussy. As for a male, they have the privilege of having a hanging-outside looking cocktail sausage, which is called the penis. Oh, before I forgot, males have the two balls, wrapped in a sagging looking, wrinkled-skin with messy pubic hair on it.

During the ancient times, females are worthless and are treated like fuck-toys. All they do is get fucked and clean up the mess the males make. I just couldn’t understand why do females get treated this way? Look through my points, and don’t missed out any and you’ll get what I mean. You see, females are the ones that get pregnant, they are the life giver, bringing those mother fucking bastards on earth. Bringing and giving them a fucking life to live. Don’t you agree? You can’t say no to that. Besides that, when the process of intercourse, for those unlucky virgins who get fucked by horny male bastards with their millions of sperm dying to meet and join with an ovum. I tell you why virgins are unlucky and I tell you why those penises love virgins. You see, when a female is still a virgin, everything is still in the brand-new order, they call it- tight. Those mother fuckers love it tight. It gives them the ultimate pleasure. They masturbate, all men do, inevitably. But, they use their bare hands to do it; when it meets a pussy, its different story altogether. The point here is, when sexual intercourse is taking place, the males get the ultimate pleasure in their whole entire life. On the other hand, the females suffer from the pain, the enlargement process of something sticking into your pussy, going back and forth. Just imagine you had a hard time shitting, constipation for instance, huge faeces comes dropping out. The pain that the female felt is probably 10 times worst than your constipation pain.

You see what I’m trying to tell you here? Why are girls being treated this way? Fucking males get all the privilege, and that is a non-arguable statement!

Now, we drop by today’s world, the treating the females like slaves are long gone. Now, even the females are more dominant than the males, thumbs up for that! But still, here’s the sad part. When females get fucked, they are looked down and are labeled as a bitch, or worst- slut. As for the mother fuckers here, fucking around is their pride and glory. They lose nothing, female loses everything. Here’s another question to ponder upon, why is it so not fair for the females? That is why, when guys suffer in whatever circumstances over a lady, it is appropriate, it is very acceptable. Haven’t we the ladies suffer enough for you guys out there? Think about it.

i told you so

as irritating as it may sound. Quotes: First you deny, now you avoid?
I can't take it anymore, why can't you just understand that it's just hard and complicated not to mention, total wakwardness to talk about such topic to you? What more can i say when i like popping such question? Clarifying stuff is insignificant anymore when you already had the heads up and hints. Truth is always ugly anyways, Both ways, both parties are so forceful to put a stand on things. Why not think about the middle person. Me? It ain't my fault, at least not a 100% my fault. I didn't want us to burn out at one side. And the other, i didn't plan to hold you down, But i already am.
Find another. Who won't hurt you and make you cry. Please.