Loving me is like straightening curls.

when a tornado meets a Volcano.

2010-07-27T16:03:00.004+08:00

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable and unguarded. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you.

Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you, some part of you that you unconciously give in to... They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you or hold you, and then your life isn't yours anymore. And the best part is... you're aware of it. You know that its happening but you just let it in. Let the whole goose-bumping-good-feeling aura take control of you. Hence, the heart is left unguarded, in the hands of another.

Love takes hostages. When it gets inside you and abuses you.... It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. But this is the part when all things fail.

So don't let it fail you.

We tend to make promises according to our hopes and dreams that we want to hold on to but tend to perform according to our fears. Try not to let that happen too often and embrace whatever you have and never take it for granted. Love fails only when you let it fail.

xoxo~

nobody else can match our flavour.

2010-05-25T05:48:00.002+08:00

It feels too good when you're around me.

I need more dosage of you!

xoxo

found in your embrace.

2010-05-02T18:10:00.004+08:00

Despite all the shites and rumours that is going on and the undone assignments and revision thta should be going on, I am still so damn the relax. Taking things slowly and according to my pace. Gawd!!! Can my procrastinating and don't give a shite about what people thinks ever stop? Sometimes, I think that it is my don't care attitude that brings me down... yet it is that severe disease in me that keeps me going and walking down the street with confidence. It's all about juggling the good and the bad, happy and the sad I guess.

All I know is, I don't wanna be caught up in between anything, anyone and everything, Either a yes or no. There is no such things as in between. Like there is no such things like stupid questions, there is just stupid people. Getthawhattaimean? I miss my folks and friends back home.

I miss this bitch. She's my bitch! Hands off ppl!

p.s.- God. Help me in this final semester and get me through all this shites and look after me when I make my decisions. It may not be wise, but I want it to be right. Loves.

xoxo

I don't wanna hang up.

2010-04-25T20:06:00.003+08:00

you make me wanna leave the one I'm with, start a new relationship with you. That's what you do- Usher.

You love her, but you said you're falling for me? huh! How does that work?

xoxo

take me to the Candy shop.

2010-04-21T18:02:00.003+08:00

I don't know why my hubbie, Suez wond this phrase. -Loving me is like straightening curls- funny. Seriously... What I'm trying to define here is that.. it is so not easy to love someone like me. Go straighten your curly curl hair and see... how long will it last? I give you 4-5 months Tops! That's what I'm trying to tell here. I am a complicated person who has so many shites and drama taking place in my Life! And the fun fact here is.. I love this life of mine!

this pic i look like an umbede.. but i was having fun baybehh! Love ya priscilla.. dancing partner all night long! Sry kiran, your girl was taken that nite. Huhu.. *i think i need a bf* oops!

When you look at me, tell me what do you see? This is what you get, the way I am! =)

xoxo

turn on the Last Song

2010-04-20T20:34:00.003+08:00

I am sick of being caught up in my position. Fcuk you la! Seriously... Why did I let you in at the first place? I could have save myself all the trouble. Fcuk emotions!

I'm thinking bout everything that we've become, and I hate it, I thought we can make it. But I'm ready to jet it, just wanna forget about it.

Don't put up my head up on the clouds and make me feel like I'm floating. Cause honestly, time is all I need. Nobody can quite do it like I do, all my kisses and my loving.

we ride. xx.

Don't blow me up on my Saturday's phone.

2010-04-20T02:12:00.003+08:00

You only get one chance to win this piece Heart of mine, pretty boy.

Life is so complicated because I make them that way. (fullstop)

xoxo.. im off to Bed! NOW~

was it something I did, or something You said?

2010-04-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

Don't play games with me, like you know I'm gonna stay.

I try to keep it together cause I don't wanna fall apart... sometimes it wears you out being the tough chic out there, oh well... The world is cruel. Imma work my way! Sigh.

HS, I so need to take your advice seriosuly and embed it in my head over and over again, sometimes friends should really stick being friends ONLY. No good taking the next pace. Don't you think?

...................................

I need to throw away all my procrastinating attitude. Like seriosuly! I need a rehab or maybe just need some early sleep. (LOOK wth am i doing here now?) See what I mean?

Class!!!! Tomorrow.. I am so coming! Rawrrr!!!!

Get in Line.

2010-04-14T20:22:00.002+08:00

If you wanna get a piece of this Heart of mine, boy stop! Get in line.

Ain't denying the fact that I am excited over tonight's plan. It's been TOO LONG since I get excited over a full night-party all night long- outing. Darn. Then again, no worries folks- New York style baybehh! And I attended my 9am class! Yes, I am bragging it online here! Huhuh...

Imma make my Life as Colourful as possible.

So screw you! WHoever who's trying so hard to unshine my sunshine. I'm too fly, to be depressed. So better luck next time, or shall I say- Try harder. =)

xxx

before i Love and Leave you.

2010-04-14T00:19:00.008+08:00

No point try to hide it and evade it.

If you fall for me, I'm not easy to please, told you from the start.

Ok.. confession time. I have been skipping classes for God knows why and how many frigging times. Time to get back on track!!!! urghh.. i hate myself, sometimes. But still, I love myself for being me me me... not like some morons who always wanna be who people want them to be. Sad case. I have the ultimate example, ex that I left. P_ _ _ _ _. Fill in the blanks! huhu.. anwyays No self respect and personality. Pure loser.. why am I even with him? Prolly he has been trying so hard to camouflage. Urgh.. disgusting.

I just painted my fingers Green.... haha! Awesome party to head tomorrow night! I'm doing it New York style, so no worries folks! Thursday public hols summo.. what more can my perfect night be, besides perfect!

I love my Patrick! dear hubbie, though we tried to leave and divorce and killed each other for 3 times in a row.. i still Heart you! LOL.. renee tan baybehh! I'm going lesbo.

I loveeeee.. piggie backkieee!

Look at my eyes.. window to my soul. So see thru-able kan?

xoxo

You were serenity and took away my bad days.

2010-04-06T07:33:00.002+08:00

I am up at 7am in the morning... and blogging when I have class at 8am.. and I am kinda hyped actually. No sleep last night! And things are gonna get even more interesting cause I have classes and activities and everything going on till 5pm!

Oh life.. I'm loving you more and more.

xoxo

Lightning don't strike the same place twice

2010-03-27T19:34:00.004+08:00

So if you do decide to say Goodbye, make sure you don't regret it and its final.

We're just friends, don't ask me Why. I'm gonna take things very the slow and at my very pace, you know how much of a procrastinater am I right folks? *giggles*

Life is a bitch and imma make things fun. Why paint it in one colour when I can make it colourful right?

Pic above was the 1st time me n von went for flavoured smoke, shisha baybehh... not a big fan of it, but all for the fun of it la huh.. apparently, this twin of mine is loving it! So what the heck... girls night out on a Saturday night! Shisha-s and keep the drink coming la huh... I'll be going back tomorrow anyways, fcuk everything.. get out of my way worries.

Imma do what I want.

*calls for mom and dad!! I'm heading out after dinner.. smiles widely and innocently*

don't take me home, till the sun comes up.

2010-03-26T23:11:00.003+08:00

I'm confuse with what i'm feeling. I'm lost. (sigh)

Anyways.. here I am.. watching paranormal activity Again, with my two sisters. They're freaking out and I'm laughing. LOL!

BTW, robert pattinson is STILL DRIVING ME CRAZY!

~I miss dressing up~

loves.

threw the blame back and forth.

2010-03-25T21:30:00.003+08:00

I realised Ne-yo is actually very look-able, he is really one Gentleman that's for sure. God, please let at least one gentleman to pace his footsteps into my life. It's only one? I really need to meet one genuine gentleman. I'm so sick with these sick buffaloes and cows roaming around my life.My sister and I was talking some crap and out of a sudden, so randomly she said something so amusing. I can't recall the exact word, but Imma put it in my way, it's like saying... 'can your conversation stop revolving around guys? Everytime you come back, sure got stories on humans that have testerones.'LOL! So random but I told her- 'its not like i'm desperate in need of one, they just eventually carve a road in my life and walk pass by. But whether they stay or not.. it still depends on me.' Comprendo sist?

Anyways, i am so in love with this song! ANGELS CRY.

I am one who adores and live my life, picturing them through lyrics. So play my games here folks. lol! I can be kinky in a way, but its my way!

XOXO

say guguGaga with me.

2010-03-25T00:42:00.004+08:00

...ROBERT PATTINSON...

How can i not die looking at these! *drools, overandoverandoverandoverAgain*

......................................

I just found heaven and died. (several times today, mind you)

xoxo

Never the right time to say Goodbye

2010-03-24T09:32:00.003+08:00

cause i really don't feel the way i once feel about you.

Hey! It happens.

cause at times affection takes place, you never know what you need, so i gotta figure out what i need. Then again, Rule number 5 applies here. I take my time, my pace and do it my style. I'm sorry I am just straight forward at most things. But i mean no harm, what is there to hold on to when there is nothing there, right?

So why not just live life and take it as it is? *smiles*

Urgh... why am I even blogging early in the morning here, I think I am really losing my frigging mind. I sooooo gotta get ready now, but i'm still procrastinating here. So typical me.

The girls will kill me if im not there today, you see... i'm suppose to head to school to collect some stuffs. And at the same time, yvone, sarah, layyin..and the rest wants to see me! Hah! and I so wanna see them in their uniforms! LOL.. so it was a monday when i said yes.. im coming. Till this very moment I am still not there! Hahahaha... sometimes i laugh over stupid things. OMG.. what is wrong with me!

I think i need a dosage of My Edward before i lose my whole mind! Remember Me here i come!!!

Oh.. have i mention i love my sisters? Oh well. I very much do! 3 girls are so awesome... charlie's angels bayybehh! *loves*

now, the party don't start till i walk in.

2010-03-23T17:50:00.005+08:00

You build me up and then break me down.

oh well... maybe i should be the one saying it.

p.s.- I like my chinese features! Sepeted eyes, hidung yang flare... ahh...love me still right?

Boys, boys, boyss.... sorry to break it up to you. But i know what i want, if i don't like what i see.. then its too bad!

Personal policy when it comes to boys:

1. If you did it once, there's always a second. Second chance? I'll pass.

2. If you can't handle it at my worst, you sure as hell don't DESERVE ME AT MY BEST!

3. Don't go controlling me and tell me what-to and what-not-to-do, its a turn off. Cause i know my limits.

4. Don't go "oh, males are the dominant ones"- I'll shove my fist up your ass! I'm not the typical girls you pick on the street.

5. Don't have expectations in me, cause i will take my time and walk on my pace. You get me??

I should actually continue this lists huh.. some of you girls with bastard boyfriends might find this a lil handy... lol!

.....................................................................

Anyways, i am home!! And sorry mommy! I was missing when you're home for the past 2 nights. Heh... what to do! I have crazy friends...

Hiking was tiring, ut damn awesome Jane, Kent, Chong, Woh, Dib, Faz.. etc... you know me love you guys!

Shisha the next night till my parents are done waiting for me.. yvone, fab.. you guys are an ass! Oh btw, apple-orange flavour is very-the-nice.

For the past 5 nights, i have been sleeping for 2 hours and got up and proceed with all the agendas.. and now, all i want is to sleep like a log and not wake up! Tapi family i pulak akan bising... haihxx.. life. Is so awesome! *smiles*

I love my friends and family so chooo chooo soooo... the much! You wanna know why? hehehehe... cause they always make me feel like a princess and pampered when im back! All according to me! and my call, my choice.. me me me.... from the tip and bottom and side and front and back of my heart, iloveyou!
I want a movie marathon ppl! Who's up for it?? text me! *loves*

XXX

2010-03-03T19:23:00.003+08:00

They say, Hey there Girl, tell me what do you do.

I say, nothing but i'm damn sure it's more than what you do!

Isn't it cool when boyfriends have the thinking of Jet's song - She's A Genius.

They go, my girlfriend likes to take control, she just blows my mind! How sweet and awesome don't you think?

She only listens to the radio, to see who's alive! She knows so many pretty boys but they're all the same. Wooooh! I fall rock bottom to be having a boyfriend who accept the fact that his girlfriend is the dominant-mature-know what she's doing kinda girl. Like she flirts but still by the end of the day, donkeys... you still have your girlfriends back into your arms la. Boyfriend sekalian, stop being paranoid and over protective over your girl. Give her a break already!

What you know, is who you are.. its everything. Haha.. Get what i mean? I don't either.

Life's good, though stress is piling up... imma set my mind free tonight onwards and head back hommeeeeee soon! I need a dosage of my bitches and mummy and daddy and sist! Fuuh~

Don't kiss first, cause you'll get bit!

never gonna dance again.

2010-03-01T01:46:00.005+08:00

I'm going old school lately, like really really into the grooooveeeeyy days. Elvis presley, cyndi lauper, heart, george michael and so on... they are so awesome and hit the damn spot. Am i turning the pages again? A whole new chapter perhaps. Which is always good, never say no to a fresh start.

I've been pms-ing like nobody's business lately, any lil thing ticks me off. In addition, i've been attending 8am classes, even Renee sais i've changed. Rah-rah.. i wanna be a cheerleader la. They seem so fun and bitchy. I wanna be a rah-rah! Why malaysian so eff up! Stupid government.

I think i'm outta my mind, dear hongseng... maybe i should really take your advice seriously, I should start dating books more for this semester rather than those testerones. I really need to catch up. Last time there's always you and the freaks to remind me to do this and that, covering my back whenever i'm in deep shite, forgetting due dates for assignments etc. Why did you ppl pamper me so much? See now! I'm all on my own.. everything i mist do it myself. Making efforts on my own sometimes feel so pointless. Like you're loving a pole, it will never love you back. Sigh.

That means!!!! No more late night and last minutes getaways with friends. No more staying up late and doodling over nothing. And contemplate over silly suggestions by my negative-influecing-knowhowtohavefun-friends. Ohh gawdddd..... can somebody just kidnap me and make my life easier. Death is easy, life is hard. Oh bella, i so get you now.

But its always the hard things that you work your ass off that matters. Don't you think?

urgh. Amanda Lee.. where the hell have you been hiding?? You have not been yourself lately have you? Stop messing around, and NUS is one of your to-do-list now! sigh.

................................................................ '

So yes world, things have been very complicating for the last few weeks, perhaps a month ago? The whole asian-brangelina thing was going on in this friiging small town. Not that i hate you malacca, i just hate the some of your unwanted tenants.

Whohonestlylooklikeindonesianunwantedmaids that was ditch away and so they were all left stranded here. Malacca would have been so much better, prolly the best state if they're not occupying the spaces here. Oh well...

i can forgive, but forgetting is a whole new different question.

with love, xx

and i miss you Yvonetan and Janetan!

You freaks. Stop bugging me and appearing in my thoughts can or not. JIOR!

tell me if i'm INsane.

2010-02-13T12:08:00.005+08:00

It has been long since i've been talking to Shreenath C.! I tell youuuu.... it was so good to finally have a decent talk with him... but still! It ain't enough!!! LOL... he has to go grocery shopping... i have to go see lee hong seng! Ishhh... and and... another person that i have not spoke and seen for more than 6 months! Deva sayang,..... imma call her now! Mummy.. phone bill! Watch out.. u're gonna explode! LOL... i Love being home.

Thanks darls for bringing me back. ILOVEYOU!

This morning, somehthing hit on my mind... i realised right... buddhist damn bad lo... they are such a big contributing factor to global warming. I know i know... im a damn buddhist myself... but i don feel offended at all lo.. facts hurt... but it still don't change anything right? I wanted to lecture mommy on it, but then she looks so stressed and pms-ing.. like anytime she's going to give me a piece of her mind. And so i kept all to myself, poor readers.. u guys have to suffer my blabber. LOL! Anyways... i was doing a presentation last week on global warming that;s why i'm making noise here... and right.. i sgtanding outside my house for a minute also can die dy..

Like in any second... im gonna explode... im at verge of melting... if im an ice,. no worst! I'r probably evaporfated till my last drop if im an ice. Damn i tell you... it's a lil too much heat for a human to handle. But still, ppl like you and me still on air conditioner at home like nobody's business. haih... classic case for humans.

REMEMBER! What goes around, comes back around.

You are my laughing stock.

2010-02-12T16:55:00.006+08:00

Life's a game and it's not fair; I break thhrough rules and i don't care.

So i keep doing my own thing, walking tall with these pathetic bystanders staring.. and in me, i'll be laughing at them.

Isn't it awesome if there is someone that can change the colour of your mood ring for you, anytime and anywhere? *sighs*

Anyways, for a fact, sometimes i amuse myself by the way i handle and look on things. Like you can tell me you hate me and walk pass me and say mean things, i can just laugh at it and walk away. For a moment there it may hurt me and break me, then eventually my concious mind just grab me outta it. Isn't that cool?

God has made me well and mold me well....

You may break me, but I can Never be Defeated.

After all the things that i heard from people and animals all around me, i can still continue walking. You know what people? You should really mind your messed up life/education/social cycle/etc before catching up with mine la huh... you'd be suprised with whatever you'll see in mine. It may not be as pretty as the fairy tale. But it's fair enough for me. But i guess it will never be the same in your eyes right? You wanna know why.. lemme break it down to you. It's cause you only wanna see things the way you see it so it comforts you to actually TRY to live your life more normally and let's just say-more up to the standards la huh.

Truth hurts hun, it proves that when you review and comment and bad mouthed bout my journey, you're just being the gree-monster and take my life as a guide to live your life. What a shame... LOL!

I can be the Biggest Devil you ever knew, know and to-be-known. *beware*

Above this Atmosphere

2010-02-02T04:10:00.001+08:00

I guess they're all the same.

Whatta Shame... Life still goes on... shame on you.

feel the gold and the glimmer.

2010-01-29T19:55:00.006+08:00

I am so into Stolen- dashboard Confessionals.

i wasss... but then here i am again, all into it all over again. Another wed song to be! =)

when you say, I'll be the last person you wanna mess with.

You know what i'll say?? nehh... you're the first.

LOL! it's so funny when you see people getting all so hooked over something or someone or somewhat that you know they're just fooling around.... and the worst part is she is all over it and spreading her dumb image all over the page.

*bursting laughs*

Have fun being dumb Pest!

Ps. I LOVE MATT LONG!!!!!!

He is so efffffinggggg HAWT! Sizzling...hawt! i wanna date him!!!

firebomb!

2010-01-29T01:48:00.005+08:00

Holla back to you ppl out there!

Honestly, you have an opinion from that immature thought of yours... please save it and keep it to yourself to avoid public humiliation and even obvious dumbness image of you.

Truth hurts, and it's never pretty.

Don't like what you see? Please shut those lids.

Don't like what you hear? Shut those ear drums.

Don't like what you taste? Kill those taste buds.

So don't bull shit with me alright? Deal with it!

ps. This marks the end of my emo sessions.

LOL! Reneeeee... i am no more your kaki.

photographs.

2010-01-28T18:12:00.005+08:00

It should have been me and you. It could have been you and me.

Here's a love story i gotta tell, bout this boy i knew so well. Back in the days it was cool and all, other boys i could not see. Now look what happen when i let my firewalls took a day off. Boy you broke my heart when i was there...

Now it's killing me the fact that you're not around. Maybe im falling down. Maybe we need a remedy. Maybe i still need you around. But it's all just a maybe...

All i got now is these photographs, i remember the times when i made me laugh and you did your part as well. But i don't wanna be stuck in the past. I don't wanna lose what we had this far. Here's my heart, you have put it in jeopardy. What a shame... so there goes the past. I know there is no future when i wanna reminisce the past, so here i am... looking forward for a new future without glancing at the past. Not a chance. Its not a very pretty past you see... but i can live with it, in my very own ways, i tell you. So don't tell me how to do it. You know i'm too rebellious to listen.

I know you're a better man, when i was your girl.

It was a betterland when we're in our world.

...BUT ....

Symptoms.

2010-01-28T12:13:00.003+08:00

How did i get it here with you, i'll never know.

This may be my emo session... so people, deal with it. It helps me to get things clear and outta my mind. dear blog, can i tell you that iloveyou? I guess blogs are just one of the awesomess ways to get things outta me. So to whoever out there who is prone to be offended by my words. I won't apologies. Don't like it? Stay away from this page. xx

Honestly, im not the type to get my heart broken, im not the type to get upset and cry. I guess i don't really leave my heart open, i never want relationships to get deep to me. But i guess this time was an exception, my firewall wasn't working. What a bummer!

There's always a time when everyone will go through it in relationship, as in the ones that they really pour their heart to it. Not those hook ups and flings. The time when things get outta hand, and when that time takes place. Damn.. mind is gone, astray from love. this is how i feel...

Did it happen when we first kiss? Or maybe we spent so much time together, and i know that is no more. I shouldn't let you hold on me... cause it is hard for me to let it go. This time is different though.. i may have those break down moments.

But hey,

Life's a bitch and i'm gonna be a better bitch living through it and playing games with it.

I may feel like a victim of it once in a while... but what do you expect out of a girl with a broken heart right??

ps. I never meant to let it get so personal.

and Yes i will be fine.

Dont have to show me pity face and obvious concern when you see me.

*xx*

show me that you're a gentleman.

2010-01-26T01:06:00.002+08:00

I am hooked!!!!! With GG Bayyybehhh... lol! Gossip Girl is so irritating and annoying... but they're so freaking addictive. I love serena... drama but yeah... she has her swag. Blair is so... urghhh.. gowd! Watching it reminds me of high school all over again.. haha!

AND!!!!

Shooooppppiiiinnnngggggggggg

tomorrow with Janey! This is so exciting.. Malls please don't let me down ok?

xoxo

masochistic Ride.

2010-01-25T15:44:00.007+08:00

ain't nobody better than us.

It's never easy to let go anything that we had planned and been through and start all over again.

But yet, imma see myself in a bigger picture.

Words are easily spoken, actions are the ones that are always left hanging. I can tell my self and talk myself into how i can go through this. Fact is, it is hard but i will not give in to that masochistic felling.

Let's all take a swim~ lol.. so random.

Nobody else can do it quite like i do, all my kisses and my loving... but the thing is-

Just blame yourself cause you blew it, i won't forget how you do it.

i need to freaking stop posting up emo tect. darn! xx

AND!!!

For the record, is my darling suez Birthday! So welcome to the world of being 18 sista! U knw me love you... BearHugs~

Don't you just love her crazinessss??? lol~ we were like the duo during our first-time-going-camping-in-the-wild mate... we've been through ups and downs i tell youuu... Clean each others backside and all.. metaphorically la. LOL!

XX again..

lil late for explanation.

2010-01-25T01:16:00.004+08:00

it's funny how someone can be so twisted and mind blastingly cunning when it comes to Lies.

I ain't gonna beat around the bush and make people go confuse, this post is clearly for some guys out there, well.. most guys who thinks that they have to be the macho ones, to show off on front of the crowd, the dominant one ay? Kiss my ass.... you don't stand a chance if you don't make any sense and think immaturely? You got a problem with my statement? Talk to me! I'll give a long and detailed explanation and kill your brain cells on how wrong guys perception can be...

THIS IS MY FREAKING BLOG. And im telling you world, i am not some typical lady that you can control and demand on. You want something, you earn it! just cause im the less masculine one.. u wanna push me around? I'll chop off your two sagging balls you men!

Im sorry for the way i let go, for everything i wanted when you came along.
But~
I never needed you for judgement. Never needed you to be strong. Never needed you to pointed out my wrongs. And most of all, Never needed you to question me.

So ps.- Don't ever think you got a hold on me, ok mate?

my mind is Gone

2010-01-24T03:38:00.002+08:00

...astray from Love, this is how i feel.

I don't want to be a victim, call me selfish... but i don't want to go through it again.

I just registered my subject for my last semester.... where shall i head to after foundation??? Degree in cyber or malacca... gawd! Help me... and emo songs please do me a favour- Go away.

ps- hatethatiloveyou is the worst song!

When you're in my situation, it was such a beautiful song. Was.

xx.

Filthy hot mess

2010-01-22T17:07:00.004+08:00

Just stop talking cause you go ~ blah blah blah...

There is no other words that i can fairly find in the dictionary to describe how i feel. It has been an awesome journey though... i just need time and space. Maybe you should try moving on to. Don't hate me for it, things happen. Everything happens for a reason. Damn it.. i should try being lesbo tentatively. Hmmmm??? Interested anyone?

Honestly, i am not letting myself go all emotional and heart broken and down... it's just another filthy Hot mess... hardcore is what you'll see world.

BTW, i love kesha, dirty lil lyrics she have there but daamn the beat makes me go lalalalalaaaaaa.... i don't wanna think, im gonna put my head and heart somewhere else.

Happy and the sad + Good and the bad

2010-01-12T13:34:00.002+08:00

Never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I can.

I don't wanna fall back on my face again, i was so going to answer love's call.

Won't see it coming when it happens, but when it happen; You gonna feel it, let me tell you now.

ps. i'd still say ily.

thoughts went unspoken

2010-01-11T03:34:00.003+08:00

I never knew i could be hurt this way. I was all up and adrenalined, just one small scratch can be so influential. Hun, it's irrevocable. Deal with it..

I really don't want this moment to ever end... but there is time when it hits you and you can't go camouflage anymore.

Life's a bitch, i may hate it momentarily, but the fact is- i still love it.

i'm starting to love colours..

like colour-colour. But still, too much of it can ruin me being me... lol! I think it's cause of my skin colour. oh well.... XX

face is blur, we're all the same.

2010-01-09T01:37:00.002+08:00

I am in the middle of a cross-road

At the top and the verge of a mountain.

I could have been elsewhere, instead i am over here.

I am lost and i am done pretending... where do i go from here?

2010-01-04T11:00:00.002+08:00

stupidisiotfcukingassholenobrainsbitchslutbastardfcukyourselflaaaa!

Everything has a limit. Know your freaking limits ok... U need help? Ask for one, don't act like a kid. Grow up you! As i said before, i don't provoke anyone if no one disturbs me. I am a woman of peace and tranquility. Don't mess around.

Rawr!

irreplaceable

2010-01-02T20:51:00.004+08:00

new year was aweeeee-sommmmmmeeeeeeeeee..... shopping is such paradise. All expenses paid by boyyfieee... what more can i ask for a better start of for 2010?

iloveyoupraburajramanathan

and! One more freaking massive headache assignment to go and i'm through!

Pics to be uploaded soon.

2009 was something. BIG XX for those who made my 2009 a great one. 2010, show me what you got!

xoxo

pretty boys that i call friends

2009-12-28T17:58:00.002+08:00

My boyfriend is a stalker. I am announcing it officially, i have never seen such act like this before.

scary ayy?... boo.

needs.

2009-12-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

1. Shopping!!!!!

2. Toned my outta shaped body.. I have too much and unwanted adipose tissues in me! damn it. why cant boyyfiee control me? He should be like THIS: This will make u fat! Don't eat. I think he secretly like the fact im getting fat. Darn youuu....

3. more rest! That means sleeping early. Darn habit.

4. Convince my parents to let me bring the car down here without any conditions.

5. Figure out where to head after foundation: Melaka lagi ke nak ke Cyber?

6. Start eating healthy. That means no junk food at all time and mamak-ing.

7. Finish my darn assignments!!!! And go on with life without any headaches.

8. and secretly: I need more chinese friends. Sad betul my mmu life. I just realised i almost like, completely forgot how to write chinese characters. damn it... i started writing a few words in chinese characters last few days and i almost forgot how to write di-di (lil brother) and ba-ba (dad) in chinese character... see! Such terrible chinese girl i am... such disgrace. LOL! But then i said 'almost'.. that means i still have that chinese ohm in me.

9. I need to see my night and shining armour: Edward Cullen! =)

10. I need to know my NEEDS. Sad huh???

11. ........??????..... XX

2009-12-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

Things are as calm as the calm sea now... oh ocean, sea, beach.. which so ever you are... i love the way you mengolek golek with each other and form waves. Sad but true, i love you only because of the sound and effect that your dear cousin Wave produce. Wave....
Back to the topic, guess what la... suprised call received. Knew it by the tone when spoke, what is all the conversation is all about. I am so glad thou, you're the only one that can tame that wanna be and body that is full of lies, fakeness, judgemental attitude and etc. List can go on, but hey... this ain't a complaining post, now he sees you more than what he supposed to. You... all i can say is; Watch out. Your bubble is bursting anytime soon if you don't play it safe and smart. By the end of the day, drop that attitude and please realise everything started and ended because of your own actions and words. It's the cause and effect theory. Deal with it. =)

doublechin

2009-12-16T23:25:00.004+08:00

can i have some of your cookies, I will spare you my pie.

May i have the first slice?

Guess what folks, i can finally say; CLubbing is no more my cup of tea. Kudos.

Oh! Same goes to alcohol, except sexonthebeach. I love that shite~

and as you all can tell on my title above, this pic shows you.. yes! My double chin that is getting more and more obvious. Im a pity when it comes to self-image and self-realisation and self-discriminating.

You can say i see things this way:

A halp empty glass, rather than a half full glass. Oh bother my negative-ness.

Anyhooooo.... this fella above, which happens to fall into the category of boyfriend is bloating me up everyday. It seems to be keeping him at the happy side, whenever i eat and crave for food. Darnyoupraburajramanthan. Even now, food tickles my mind, and triggering the nerve in me to crave for food. Oooo... wrapped kebab would hit the spot right now! urgh.

and and! He is so indian and still love idianising himself, i feel lack sometimes. LOL! Like i'm not indian enough already. lol...

i want goodnightKiss. XX

I won't put my hands up and surrender

2009-12-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

WHY oh why oh WHY... have i skipped so many classes in a week? or two... heee.... now, it's all getting back at me. Damn it.

Eng presentation can do solo??? Go away headache. Go away migrain.

Why are you still here when i have so much hatred in you.

I feel like i'm an orphan.. sesat-ed child, begging for shelter and a kind family to bring me in. OMG... desperate i am. Sad huh?

like a ghost don't need a key

2009-12-10T21:34:00.003+08:00

Today was More than perfect. Everything worth while. Thx babyy... i Heart you!

He can be so crappy, and all you wanna do i just slap the shite outta him. But who cares, he makes me Happy.

i guess you don't like happy endings.

2009-12-09T01:05:00.003+08:00

Oh well, that is so fineeee, with me.

Can someone take a portion of my heart, where it embedded my soft, sensitive and vulnerable to break part and splatter it to those insensitive humans who love to make my life complicated, being judgmental and two-faced. Let’s have a silent, heart-to-heart deeper conversation and rub away all the misunderstandings.
I’m done for standing up for myself, voicing out, and being sarcastic. Everyone needs rest, it’s my turn now. So to the rest of the evil, erratic world out there, go on tire out yourself. You will have your turn of tranquility and peace after putting yourself in a ridiculous situation and embarrassing yourself. have fun being in the solitary moment of Embarassment.... xx

LOL

2009-12-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

Yes i am.. LAUGHING OUT LOUD at you. You!

have a nice day.

Keys to understanding English

2009-12-01T18:30:00.001+08:00

Keys to understanding English

i fell asleep in a horrible state

2009-12-01T16:01:00.003+08:00

then dreamt, you love my best friend.

just fooling ayy

anyway, opinion time! (read above)

my opinion? Read below,. LOL!

1. Needy guys, to me they're just irritating. A pest... you cant have a boyfriend that needs you 24,7. Honestly, the girls should be the needy ones. Thou from my point of view, i hate needy girls. And i don't think i am one. Boyfriend, is just a current relationship that you have no future gurantee on. Yes, u'd probably talk to him about everything and have plans in mere future, but when u're still in your teenage-hood age. You change your mind often on everything. Nothing is permanent. Besides, how can u have a boyfriend who spills everything out to you and telling you their deep-emotional-boy stuffs? Some stuff should be and must be kept secret From the world, even wives have secrets that they don't tell their husbands.

2. Predictable guys, the word predictable is clear enough. BORING! Ok maybe the first few dates are amusing and all. But who wants a boyfriend who is so predictable, you just know where they'll bring you, what they will say in each conversation and arguments. Wth right? Every guys must have a few self-trademarked tricks up their sleeves. If not, kiss goodbye to those hawt girls out there guys.

3. Arrogant guys, ok this species of men, don't respect anyone that HE thinks are lower class or don't fit his type/genre etc. If he doesn't have respect to others, cause he thinks his always the right one, the best; do u ever think he'll respect you as his girlfriend? I don't think so. So girls, if you think your boyfiee has an ego, break that ego bitch first before giving him anything, even a kiss on the cheek!

4. Boorish guys, ok i've never heard of this adjective before. boo.. anyway, i don't think i have any big problem towards boorish guys compared to the other genre of men. Girls, if you have low-self esteem. That is a problem that you should really fix it. Have confidence, why wanna get jealous if your boyfriend looks or even glance at other girls? You know u're better than them already cause you have the guy. Not them. That of course u must be proud of your man la..and to get equal with your guy, look and drool over other guys then. You can even drool over super-hawt charming actors like Edward Cullen, that will already make your guy get crazy. And then, tell them- you can do it, why can't i? LOL..

5. Cheap guy, ok... well not much i can comment here. This depends on the girls side. If the girl are the bitchy-wannabe type. They use their man to possess expensive gifts. So obviously that type of girls will definitely strike you guys out la! But then again, in my opinion.... cheap guys and calculative guys are the same. I honestly hate calculative guys, don't say guys, even girls that are calculative are just irritating and lifeless. Even a few cents are taken into account. These kinda humans shouldn't be classified as humans. Imagine how embarassing would it be to be going out with them? Who would pay the bills after the meals? damn.

6. The arguer, haha! I love talking and debating and being rebellious. So, argumentative guys should be a very interesting one for me. Just because they are hguys doesn't mean they have to be dominant and right at all times k? Girls have their thoughts and saying too! Especially when it comes to me. You give me reason that u must be dominant cause u're they guy and im the girl in the relationship? I will skin you alive for just by thinking that way... try me if you dare.

Anyways all these are just opinions. Don't be judgemental ppl.

I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.

2009-11-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

I never needed pain. I never needed strain. I never needed words. I never needed hurt. Now guess what, it's a lil late for conversation and explanation, there isn't anything for you to say. It has been another great journey with pain in the end. but time kills all pain, i will just suffer at the beginning. So thank you for the pain, and the strain and tears altogether.

guess what!

2009-11-25T21:30:00.004+08:00

Guess what i found! LOOK!!!!!! Above dumb dumbs!!!! Eclipse.... 2010! How can my life be anymore better and satisfying la??? I LOVE YOU... God! laughing out loud, smiling out wide now. haha!

I shall put on some of my fav quotes here.

New Moon's out, so i shall mention some from new moon:

from Edward: What choice have I? I cannot be without you, but I will not destroy your soul.

feel me???? feel me!! LOL... u get what i mean? darn.

and.. from Bella.

The absence of him is everywhere I look. It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest.

Tell me all about it. ratings and my huped-comments on new moon movie shall be out soon. Till then .

I love edward Cullen to the MAX, hate me for it. *grins* and by.. u too. <3

have i found you?

2009-11-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

ZOMG!!!

What more can i say??? NEW MOON is out.. and i am watching it tonight!!!!! I am so excited. Words are so under rated now. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Kill me!!!

Edward sayang.. im coming! Haha... LOL! I am outta my mind. At last it's here it's here....

Look at him.. just look la. How charming can he be. OMG.. he is the definition of it. LOL... irresistable to the max.

Tonight will be the night!

i can be so mean when i wanna be.

2009-11-23T14:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it's good to shout in public. Don't you think? It might be a lil LOA- lack of attention and you get some stares. But why not? Especially in a public place that is not your hometown? Like in malacca? You ppl should try out. =)

omgomgomgZomg

2009-11-22T22:58:00.003+08:00

I am really getting more and more tham jiak and eating like nobody's business. sarah ng mei ler, if u're reading this. I got ur eating disease in me! and my thighs seems to be huge. omFG! I know fats dont accumulate in days time but this time, i think it really does. Or maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me cause my body can't take the disease anymore. dang!

Anyhoooo.... lil brad, which is not so lil anymore is really getting on everyone's nerve. Yet, his some freaking cute cockel spanniel (if that's how u spell it) mixed doggie.

LOOK!

the name's Brad. The Brad.

LOL.. told you he's cute, and yes he has a chain hanging around him. Pamper shite.. he eats ayamas chicken bone, lucky bastard.

i'm unprotected.

2009-11-21T17:24:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt like u're see-though-able? And it's like u fall for pretty things too fast. Just a lil too fast, ppl around u said, take one step at a time. But at that very moment, things just felt so solitude, like u need to take a bigger step, or skip a step.

u're acting like u're oh-so-debonair

2009-11-21T16:33:00.004+08:00

okay, lately i've been pms-ing and throwing tantrums like crazy. I pity boyfiee... anyways, most of the times, well sometimes it was because of him. and some other shite random stuff that i will relate to whatever that is happening and arguing with. Okay.. don't get my point? It's ok. LOL.. i talk inversely lately.

So anyway, last few nights i was so freaking pist with some matter, and he have to come interfere and talk crappie stuff and being dumb and irritating me. I kickid him outta his room, on my laptop and started writing an essay. Freak? I know. I really don't know what got into me. Haha! So what my erratic mind says is to, post up my drafted, spontaneous, filled with anger and crappie essay here.

...here goes...btw, it's x-rated.

Female is the word that is meant for the feminine life that is leaving on earth; Male is the word for the oh-so-masculine living beings on earth. It’s just two letters away from each other, and physically wise, female has the existence of two smart bombs hanging in front of their chest and a vagina, which males called them pussy. As for a male, they have the privilege of having a hanging-outside looking cocktail sausage, which is called the penis. Oh, before I forgot, males have the two balls, wrapped in a sagging looking, wrinkled-skin with messy pubic hair on it.

During the ancient times, females are worthless and are treated like fuck-toys. All they do is get fucked and clean up the mess the males make. I just couldn’t understand why do females get treated this way? Look through my points, and don’t missed out any and you’ll get what I mean. You see, females are the ones that get pregnant, they are the life giver, bringing those mother fucking bastards on earth. Bringing and giving them a fucking life to live. Don’t you agree? You can’t say no to that. Besides that, when the process of intercourse, for those unlucky virgins who get fucked by horny male bastards with their millions of sperm dying to meet and join with an ovum. I tell you why virgins are unlucky and I tell you why those penises love virgins. You see, when a female is still a virgin, everything is still in the brand-new order, they call it- tight. Those mother fuckers love it tight. It gives them the ultimate pleasure. They masturbate, all men do, inevitably. But, they use their bare hands to do it; when it meets a pussy, its different story altogether. The point here is, when sexual intercourse is taking place, the males get the ultimate pleasure in their whole entire life. On the other hand, the females suffer from the pain, the enlargement process of something sticking into your pussy, going back and forth. Just imagine you had a hard time shitting, constipation for instance, huge faeces comes dropping out. The pain that the female felt is probably 10 times worst than your constipation pain.

You see what I’m trying to tell you here? Why are girls being treated this way? Fucking males get all the privilege, and that is a non-arguable statement!

Now, we drop by today’s world, the treating the females like slaves are long gone. Now, even the females are more dominant than the males, thumbs up for that! But still, here’s the sad part. When females get fucked, they are looked down and are labeled as a bitch, or worst- slut. As for the mother fuckers here, fucking around is their pride and glory. They lose nothing, female loses everything. Here’s another question to ponder upon, why is it so not fair for the females? That is why, when guys suffer in whatever circumstances over a lady, it is appropriate, it is very acceptable. Haven’t we the ladies suffer enough for you guys out there? Think about it.

flightless bird

2009-11-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

Honestly, i just can't wait for the New Moon, twilight saga movie to be out. I am telling you, giving you a heads up first. I can go crazy... like really out of my mind, overly erratic. So beware! And screw you freaks out there, who's alter ego which is super high, that cannot accept the fact that New Moon is so-damn good! Living in denial, is not a life idiots.

Anyhoo.... did i told you i went for a 21st birthday bash party lately? I guess not, it was Regina darling's 21st, and i met his oh-so-cute bro Elijah which is a freak in tattoos and Incubus. His the dark side. I don't mind intro him to you single chic out there. Gimme a ring.
And an extra point for this party is, Regina's party serves the BEST and im highlighting it, The Best potato salad ever on earth! Never have i ate such scrumptious and soft and crunchy yummy, finger licking potato salad ever. Haha.. after the house party, there were like alcohol freaks as the guest, so yes u're right... non stop flows of alcohol was pouring the whole nite. And need not i remind you that, there's a vast difference in between love to drink- alcoholic and being able to drink.... lol! So at home, if im not wrong there were approximately 7 bottles of white label.
After house party, head down to Pure, as usual. There seems to be a lesser choice of clubs and hang outs here. So pls bear that on mind. Pure... 3 tables booked, with 3 buckets of beers each. So you do the math.
3x3... How many buckets were there? Haha... you tell me.
Liquor then beer. Ain't it fun? Booo...
and further than that, alcohol kicks in.. and there it goes.

I heart this pic... don't you? ladies, his taken.
elijah. Ladies...

Johnny!

Birthday girl and I, on flaming Lamborghini.
and honestly, no more flaming for me, ever. I tawar with that shite dy. lol...

XX folks.

mat rempits

2009-11-17T15:53:00.002+08:00

The truth hurts, lol....

To all my dear moral assignment mates, i know i have a part to contribute in this assignment... but if u know me well, i will definitely finish it without fail, but im always a last minute worker. Kudos! So, here's the thing, i have to submit to them to finalise everything. And guess what, i just finished my oart, lol... mail it to them and wal-lahh! I am at the safe side, no blames to be out on me. Ok i slept at 5am - 6am yesterday, and finally got my ass up from my bed. So excuse the babbling part of me.

You know what? i shall post up my work.

SOLUTIONS TO MAT REMPIT - ILLEGAL STREET RACERS

1. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
Governments should start enforcing new rules and proper facilities to facilitate and educate these racers. We always see it in news that the government will do this and will do that to help these unmannered racers. But the government need to realize that wanting something and by mentioning it is just words, actions should be taken and carried out immediately to fully aid these lost souls. If these actions were to delay, it might be too late to help these people when they permanently make street racing as their habit. Rehabilitation centres should be built, effective counseling sessions should be carried out from time to time and so on. These should be an action, not just suggestions.
2. KNOWING THEIR PEERS.
Mat rempit consists of mainly the youths in the country; you don’t see adults or children riding on the street in the middle of the night. Teenagers are the ones doing this illegal street racing and you can see it framing up on each and every source of media. Youths, as everyone know, are influenced by their cycle of friends. Their identity and personality are mould by their peers, who they tend to hang out with and socialize with. Hence, it is essential and is a responsibility for every parent to know their child’s cycle of friends. Parents should know that they too play a very important role in their child’s life, recognizing their child’s real attitude can prevent them from getting involves in illegal street racers.

3. SCHOOL SHOULD COLLABORATE WITH POLICE/OTHER AUTHORITIES.
School is like the second venue to home for all children and youths. It’s a place where they spent more than ¼ of their time there, every weekday. Besides, schools are the main place where the youths hang out and share their time together with their friends. Schools are highly recommended to collaborate with higher authorities like the police men to catch which ever students that are involved in illegal street racing. Heavy punishments like dropping out from school should be embedded in the school’s rule in order to prevent student and youths in getting involved in illegal street racing. Such rules will than provoke them not to get involved in such activities and make them think twice in getting involve. As they say, prevention is better than cure.

4. MEDIA TOO CAN PLAY A ROLE.
Media is always known for its negative effect towards the younger generation’s mind. Inevitably, television has become the learning box for our generation, today. We can argue whether it teaches the negative or positive values, but one thing’s for sure; it is one of the main sources of education and entertainment, at the same time. Whether we are pre-schoolers or a teenager or adult or even senior citizens, we all enjoy one thing in common; and it is the television. Also known as, the entertainment industry- media. Hence, the entertainment industry can actually play a bigger role. They should realize, they can be the main culprit behind all the sins in the world or the guardian angel to educate today’s corrupted generation. Making films and publish more about the world for the illegal street racers can actually punch a hole in the youth’s head and make them realize that they are taking the wrong route for their life. Show them how they can destroy their future by participating and getting involved in illegal street racing. As they say, picture shows a thousand words. If they can’t understand the advice given in words, act it and play it out for them.

5. CITIZENS AND BYSTANDERS SHOULD FACILITATE THE POLICE.
Instead of feeling threaten over these illegal street racers, we as the bystanders should take an action to provoke and teach them a lesson. We should contact the authorized officers as soon as we caught a sight of any suspected illegal street racers. The policemen will have difficulties in arresting these hooligans, as it is hard to identify them. As a bystander, whenever we are harassed by these bunches of racers, we shouldn’t be stopped and stunned by them. Instead, we should run them over and trail them off to the nearest police station. Two men are better than one man in doing this job.

6. WHY RACE ON STREET WHEN YOU CAN RACE ON TRACKS? This may sound absurd, but try thinking it in this way- we can prevent unwanted, deadly tragedies. Illegal street racing causes road accidents and the current issue is murder, as they harassed other citizens which unfortunately was caught at the same place as they are. So, think of it, if these racers cannot be stopped, why not encourage them to race on proper tracks? Besides, in this way, we can then have a little hold and control over them after some time.

It's kinda here and there, cause this is the draft, all by my own effort k... plagarism is so not my thing. XX

no offense BUT

2009-11-17T05:39:00.002+08:00

Fucking malaccan are so typically urghhhhh-uncivilized!!! If i may say so... like it or not, it's my fucking blog and i say what i want to say, don't like it? Fuck off! Im honestloy not in the mood to try to thing straight and take care of people's feeling, right now. I don't give a damn. Sue me la dumb!
Fuckers, just because we klang people don't act immature and delete people from their accounts and "so call" putus hubungan... pls la.. it's just virtually. Get in reality la freaks, you still gotta face the real world. I hate you. And you. So grow up you people. If unfortunately you like the way you are, then don't start comparing and asking and telling stupid stuffs to me. Fucks.

Boo!

2009-11-03T12:52:00.005+08:00

Halloween pics- updates!

I didn't really think that the guys' outfits are scary, not even for a second... hilarious thou. But after looking through at these pics. It is a little hair goosing-bumping around. Lol! Have fun.

look! I have Vampire's fangs.. scary ayy? lol~

jkjk.

Johnny in his mask thing and aJay in his Joker muka thingy..

The ladies in Bunny suits.

(notice there is another face beside pink bunny? Gawd know who or what is that. damn...)

Look i have horns! and Long hair. hhahaha... and my mr. Devil. (not so scary??? Look further down... *grins*)

Told you they're scary. See that thing in white beside me? Mr. Adrian mike. LOL! And we have mr. Devil and Mr. Hell Boy with us. lol!

daily needs.

2009-11-02T20:38:00.002+08:00

Laughters and fun. That's all i need and that's what i always want. Can't you just provide me that?

i told you so

2009-11-01T01:27:00.002+08:00

as irritating as it may sound. Quotes: First you deny, now you avoid?
I can't take it anymore, why can't you just understand that it's just hard and complicated not to mention, total wakwardness to talk about such topic to you? What more can i say when i like popping such question? Clarifying stuff is insignificant anymore when you already had the heads up and hints. Truth is always ugly anyways, Both ways, both parties are so forceful to put a stand on things. Why not think about the middle person. Me? It ain't my fault, at least not a 100% my fault. I didn't want us to burn out at one side. And the other, i didn't plan to hold you down, But i already am.
Find another. Who won't hurt you and make you cry. Please.

red devil

2009-10-31T18:21:00.006+08:00

Horns. Forky-looking titans. Tail that had failed to serve its purpose. Red tube dress. Killer heels.

What comes in your mind??

Devil!

haha... yuppie yup. Went for Halloween party yesterday, dressed up as a devil. It was okie thou, malaysians are lame. Not all, but majorly, they don't even have the initiative to dress up a little. How la to improve our country's economics and status? All selamba and lazy bumms! Lame.

I had sex on the beach, graveyard, bir bir bir... boringgggg.... But sotb was awesome, all time fav. Now i know why mummy likes Irish whisky. haha!

and yes! I wore a wig... more like extension wig, i had long hair yesterday, a real heads up for my consideration of doing extension. Wicked. Lol!

Pictures at iz's hp, shall upload it soon!

i am so liking the wig-effect.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN folks! xx

sleep.

2009-10-30T21:12:00.003+08:00

I think im a nocturnal patient.... seriously. I am sleeping so late every night that i donmt even realised i am tired even if i am. Getthawhattaimean?

Something random... how to be Cruel to old Man. haha!

Old horny ones.

And it's raining! After so long. xx

aint so special after all.

2009-10-30T20:35:00.003+08:00

It's over rated to say malaca has the best food in town and all. Okie.... cheap food all around in hawker stalls probably serves some good ones with the price that is very affordable. But other than that, not so afterall.

Daddy drop by malaca just now, to come see me of course! When he's on the way back from Johor, he travels a lot you see.... haha! So, we went out for dinner, there's a few places i recommended... but all doesnt seem to impress him... buuu! LOL... anyways, i got so fed up, besides im not that good when it comes to leading the way and recognising directions and roads. So wth... we ended up in a western food restaurant eating grilled chicken chop and fillet and pasta and everythinf that is common. Damn. I most start roaming all around malaca; not that i dont.... oh well. Shouts: Malaccans out there! Prove to me something... haha!

On the other hand, Halloween Party is tonight! what to wear? what to dress up as????? damn it... can i just dont dress up? Just go as me myself and I. Scary enough righttt???? lmao.

but.. i like this. Sexay aint it? But a lil porn-ish as well. Bummer.

damn it

2009-10-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

i just wrote freaking one big full lenghty page of words on this very page, and it just when deleted. fcuk. I hate you Blogger.
Not to mention darn you streamyx.
Nerves!!!!!

semester 2

2009-10-19T17:54:00.002+08:00

yuppieee doopiieeee doooooo.... sem 2 is here. Time flies.. i know! And assignments are also piling up. Screw youuuuuu1

Akon's concert anyone???? xx

this is so ominous.

2009-10-15T00:18:00.003+08:00

i HEART this song. And it actually portraying things that will want to, need to, and right to say to him if things get wrong. Shite happens.... but one thing's for sure. I am no where close to these lyrics. But as i say, it's ominous!
Awesome song with even awesome lyrics. <3

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

second road trip

2009-10-14T00:46:00.003+08:00

SINGAPORE!!!!! You heard it right.... just got back.. wicked right?! LOL... more updates to come! Now, im gonna get changed!
xx

shouts

2009-10-10T01:27:00.000+08:00

Seriously:
why bother when people around you tends to disappoint you???

singa here i come

2009-10-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

rawr!

Mommy daddy... i love you!!!!! Im sry again. <3>
Singapore here i come! i love my life.

I need a change. My time table for my second sem is killing me softly, goodbye freedom. Urghh... still.
U know me, someway some how i'll find my way.
*winks. XX

say what you need to say

2009-10-06T00:31:00.003+08:00

This is just a sudden urge to typo on the keypad. So random, i know. But hey.. it happens k... haha! Anyways, chillign at denez's place tonight! probably sleeping here to.. and so im using her comp here. and all i got to say is.. her keyboard damn cacat! anyhoooo... randon thought of the day:-

Friends come and go, but one thing's for sure..... the old ones are never to be forgotten. They are the ones that is always there for you when you need them. No matter how irritated they are with your request someway, somehow they'll do it for you. Just for you. This is dedicated to my kesayangan-s out there. You know who you are. with Love.

xoxox

ears

2009-09-28T18:44:00.002+08:00

I just want someone to hear me out. Keep all ears on me, that's all i'm asking.

make your little getaway.

2009-09-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

Exam just ended. So here goes.... 1 down. 3 to go....

Humans! you so gotta listen to John Mayer's I'm gonna find another you. I LOVEEEE it.... im gonna blast it out loud!

But first, sleep awaits. Fingers crossed, tomorrow is accounting paper. You know how much i dislike it.

untitled.

2009-09-27T20:07:00.004+08:00

Ever felt so guilty but you can'r do much about it? Cause there is no turning back, how can you sacrifice something that you're addicted to or attached to by now to someone that you don't really know. But behind all the lies, i know why i 'don't really know' her. There is so many awkwardness going on. She don't give you the chance, even though she said, i wouldn't blame her. It's not her fault, but hun... i know deep inside you really do put the blame on me. I'm sorry for not knowing earlier, if only.... if only..... i would love to have known you and spend time, you know we'll have fun. By any slightest chance, i might want to turn things over. Though that may not make out on where i am today, i am contented. I really do and did miss those stuffs that were skeptically left for months undone. I learnt to cope, i know how it feels. Yet, i am still selfish to do it to someone else. Have a chance on me babe... Tough on the cover, it ain't mean i'm not fragile deep inside. I wanna be mad at times, just really make it like it's a huge issue, but i can't. Cause i know, if it happens- Now what? That question will be pondering.

and honestly, i would rather have known you first than miss Z.

Give me a poker face. Again.

....... ....... ....... ....... .......

Finals starting tomorrow, look at me. Never will i change. I wanna give a damn. I tried.

................................

study laaaa weeiiii....

2009-09-27T15:41:00.005+08:00

I should really start now. BUT as usual, procrastinating is my middle name. I hate it when i do that. Seriously... someone help me. All the emotions that are running through me now is so messed up. In this hand i have problems and complications that are so tangled up, involving him and her; and in the other hand, another him and her. Then there's him and him. And again him and her. Who to blame? What to blame??

I wanna cursed and tantrums and make faces, main tak layan. But i know that will not solve it.

God, I need a poker face.

............... ignorance should be my new best friend. ily paramore. ...

2009-09-26T18:45:00.005+08:00

Pictures from the shopping spree as promised. lol!

Birthday was awesome.. mist was superb. Too bad pictures couldn't be uploaded nor taken, due to martin's request... gf ahem... if u wanna know.

but first..... birthday pics! (ps-lazy to upload everything)

im 18!!!

i love my teeths. Love itttt....

i know she's hot. But she's owned.

snooze.

Jesz, me, izue.

..................................................................................

All the way around.

2009-09-17T03:45:00.003+08:00

KL! Baybehh....

There is where i headed... woooooh000000000000/...... lol! I had fun thou.... there's a lil complications here and there. It still feels like a road trip thingy, another unexpected plannings that came to reality.

Izue and I just head up to Damansara yesterday, head up there to her sist's jesz place. Settle down, sleep and the very next day.... shopping!!!

and SUSHI!!!!!!!!!!

I have been ravenously craving for it.... hahaa! Total satisfaction for my tummy. yumm!

and guess what???!!!

i just got back! lol... yes yes.... almost 4am.

Well, that's my life here... everything and everyone is still not asleep. It feels like 8pm at night... lol!

Oh well... i'm off to get myself clean up! Pictures coming Soon.

bang bang!

2009-09-15T15:27:00.009+08:00

septemberrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..............

i love you.

(random thoughts)

okie, something new. Not so new now, but i have not been posting up a lot... wreck like a dead corpse i know.... so i'm just saying... bloggie kesayangan and dear readers; do not be shock or show what-so-ever reactions yang melebih-lebih ayy...

i've pierced my nose!

..........weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............

wanna take a look? lol!

im loving it!
XX

peekabooooooooooo

2009-09-15T04:43:00.005+08:00

what do u think?? like it like it???

gothic mania.

omggggg.... it's 4.44am.

im still up and rambling on my blog

and taking silly shots. Im nuts!.

*u know what. im gonna blog everyday.

here comes the passion.

just one night couldn't be so wrong.

2009-09-14T15:53:00.009+08:00

ROAD TRIP WAS AWESOME!

Denez and prabz was the kaki-s.

met: Greg. Jon. Delarie.

Okie,.. it's been long since i've blog. I know... but my time was consumed all this while. Too much fun, too little time im telling you. Malacca is simply awesome. Never knew a small town like this that used to be so lame and boring has drastically changed over time. For good.

Since im heare, it serves the purpose. heee....

Great peers around... what more can i say? lol!

Hahaa... okie. Here's how the whole road trip that was pre planned went.

Left at 2am in the morning.... driver prabz... so not a sober that time, as usual he will con and said im fine. Myself and denez couldn't cxare much, we just wanted our Fun to start! hahahahahaha.... the best part was, we got no idea how we're gonna head to our destination.

Destination Unknown.

to JB but we must use pasir gudang highway or something like that,

denez was with her

.... this place look familiar.....(she says that in every stop)

i was like

we're heading pasir gudang right?? follow the big trucks... go go go....

and prabu sayang was like

....pist and pist.... LOL!

So what we did was.... LOL! Thinking of it now just makes me laugh my ass off ppl.

u wouldn't believe.

I opened and started my gprs thingy and tracking roads and JB to get to denez's aunt's taman jaya ehsan. LOL! and it worked..it gave us very precise details.

and there were no more trucks to follow... started asking early morning joggers and all the old old uncle and aunty directions... went all one big round, and still couldn't find the place.

Mr. Greg.. denez's boyfie was so sleepy and probably cant even recalll we called him last night. haha! We were asking questions, he was practically nudging the head over the phone and kept saying...hmmm....hmmmm....hmmmm.... LOL!

So, with our great sense of intuition and driving around like lost souls we finally saw the sign board "Taman Ehsan Jaya". FINALLY.

and the next day.... we just went with the flow, only lousy sign boards and GPRS to lead us to all places. haha!

I've never thought i would be good with directions and recognising roads. I was so frigging proud and felt so damn contented, im telling you.

and in JB, i've met Gregory for the first time,denez boyfieeee; met his utter-cute brother Jonathan and his gf, Delarie.

Sama kepala hang out babe. haha! Went shisha..... and for the first time, i tasted honeydew shisha. HAAhaa
Too much words and grammars, i'll leave it to the pics! Ahhhhh.... delarie and denez. We can upload our shisha pics here, Greg and Jon will never know. Heeee.... hopefully.

XOXOX.

2009-08-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

trouble magnet.

Yes i am!

FriggingAdiposeTissueSucks! (FATS)

2009-07-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

F.A.T.S- Frigging Adipose Tissue Sucks!

You suck... i Hate you. (exclamation)

Going back home... im gonna whack on home cook food.... so here we go again.

The FATS ride NEVER stops.

soon.

2009-07-13T13:34:00.013+08:00

I'll be heading home soon! Haha... ok... i might not show that i miss home much but... i really do..My sayang toilet... i'm coming! I miss verny, her birthday's coming some more.

p.s. Suggestions on present?

weeeeeeeeeee....... best part is daddy's coming down to pick me up after his appointment. I cant wait!

I just woke up! haha... eating oats now. I am getting the adipose tissue accumulating man.. they're like parasit in the opposite effect! Fuck.

and Mid term is on the way!

Damn it. It's been long since i actually sit down and some "exams".. it's all coming back to me now. You could put it in the way like: i miss exams. LOL... weird. I know.. im getting kinkier. arghh... and for you ppl out there. Dont worry! For all the fun times im having here... it's balanced out with nerdy moments as well... haha! For real la.. no joke.
(though i admit fun times higher percentage than nerdy times by a lil.. but wth right! lmao.)

You so dont believe me aint you? Fine. You want proof? I give you proof! Take it and gO!~

complimentary to Vidusha. He took this...without me knwing, as always. So screw the messy look. I was really in the aura of studying.

and screw blogger and streamyx.. second time editing this post. damn it! And for that.. i'm eating SUPER RING. FATS. %$#@!

SCREWdriver.

2009-07-12T21:45:00.003+08:00

I so freaking screw things up yesterday. Argh!

i am pist with myself man! Why the fuck did i drank JD and someone smartly gave me effing bir and i took it. Smart i know! thank god i vomitted and was ok... but stil!!! I am pist at myself for doing that, Shite man! I am so through with this. Promises are promises. I'm not suppose to break it...

and now is like wth.. everyone is asking me about it. Newsflash for real man! I told you not to... i told you no. Why must you make me do this shite. And look where am i now?? And you could just blame it on me. I am thru with attitudes. I never got treated that way before. Urgh. I love mo. So what! Things happen then happen la. The best part of it is we don even care by the time the sun rises. No more for me...

i need theraphy.

I need facial.

I need pampering.

I need mani and pedi.

I need my clean water, toilet, bed and everythig else.

I need to go home!

AND I WILL!

gmail.

2009-07-02T03:48:00.001+08:00

Daddy just mailed me.

can you believe it... damn. He just made me miss home even more. I miss verny.. sobs.

I wanna go home.

But in another way, i don't.

Urgh.

stuck up.

2009-07-01T14:32:00.004+08:00

Here... right here right now. There are tonnes.

You name it, stuck ups, attitudes, two faces, everything.

And i am through as he said; u can't trust no one here.

im on my own, for now.

p.s.- Thx Pra and Hariz for your time and companionship. It was fun last night. Emoshite can be so fun at times. Lol!

darn friendster.

2009-06-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

I am feeling freaking nostalgic now.

I just viewed Friendster after so long abandoning it.

and damn it... i just saw all the pictures. Steffy's, Verny's mummy, daddy, yvone, jane.. everyone! And i miss them... badly... now. I aint liking it...

sobs.

I have work to do. Cries~

Damn it DAMN IT DAMN IT!!!

2009-06-22T00:48:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!

omg!!! OMG!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mFG26TaV1r8&NR=1

You guys gotta f-king click this... it's out! It's here... damn it! I am so thrilled and freaking adrenaline rush flowing through me.... I am so hyped!

With love, for edward only.

Back!

2009-06-21T20:44:00.003+08:00

Yes i am back... miss me?? I know you do. LOL!

More updates coming up.... lotsa pics from SPB camp, wait till i upload them up first ayy... hehe...

GTG makan dinner, and catch up with

my mates + Assignments (kene)...

p.s.- I miss Edward.

principal eCO and Business maths.

2009-06-19T17:03:00.006+08:00

I already have assignments on this two thingy! Can you believe it?

omG... i know.
I have no basics at all on economics. So here i go.... damn it.

Business maths is like additional mathematics in a way... just that everything that i've learned in 2 years time, all refreshes in the first two topics. So damn it again... i am so dead.

I need my notes, i want james tan! LOL... Thank god i brought my add maths ref here.... knew it i'll be needing it. So pandai. Cheh wahh... lmao.
And yes again, i am F.A.T.

No doubt! I can feel the chunks of ADIPOSE TISSUES forming underneath my skin. HELP.... i need to stop luring myself to thus dungeon of fatness. And the thing is, people keep bringing me good food. Darn.

Back to the topic, so you wanna know how class is like? Haha.. to kill sleepiness and layan my shocking-sendiri syndrome...

With Farah liyana... my cam-whoring babe. (kononnya paying attention)

And my one and only babe that i knew from the first day that didn't get seperated from me... so Sapi, i know. Under my foundation course, there are 20 sub-groups. Bummer!

Doing what we girls do best.

p.s. And for that, we are signing up for this- SPB club, cause they support cam whorers!! Weeeeeeeee.... in a way la. LOL!

Sigining off, heading for the camp... in campus itself. Two weeks old here, and i'm back to where i was and good at- Camping. (but of course, it'll be a total different camp that i usually attend, so wish me luck~)

With Love.

i miss them.

2009-06-17T19:03:00.006+08:00

NUMBER 1.

I miss silly Verny''.. so much! She called me that day... just to tell me she's sick. And as usual, i will tease her and say she's pretending just to skip school... HAHA!

I'm a mean ass.... gosh. I miss you vern!

and guess what.... she was so happy when i said i'm staying outside, away from you... cause she can take over my whole room. Damn it. Lol! and now.. she's calling me.. asking me when coming back. Not anytime soon verny, not anytime soon.... haihsehh....

Apparently, not daddy and mummu, yet. Cause they just came down yesterday... i miss home cook food badly now, now i get what mummy and daddy say....

""you dont eat a lot now... you wait la when you stay outside""

NUMBER 2.

i MISS this bitch.. damn it. I hate pictures now. I'm being freaking nostalgic.
Miss you babe.... come down with whoever..ahem, Mervyn and come see me. I need hugs and stupid jokes. I want to laugh for no reason and gossip for the sake of gossiping..

and this... my all time silly-hyper-indian galfren! Haha.. deva.. u know.. i said indian just to messed with you rite... i miss you darl.. haih... u should have came here.

Same to von as well... y'all should have come here! Damn.

*sobs.

So they quote.

2009-06-17T17:39:00.014+08:00

it says...

WE ARE LOOKING FOR..

shameless photographers, sarcastic writers, state-of-the-art graphic designers, super hot girls, straight cool guys, and senseless crazy people.

So if you are any of the above catogories, you are definitely entitled to join the...
*jengjengjengjeng*

STUDENT PUBLICATION BOARD

and guess what, i did. I'm joining these freakoz and whackoz, to start of my first semester... i told myself, amandaleesiuchern! You better not get involve, or maybe- Too Involve in any of this stuffs arr.... but still; I can't help it. I've been brought up that way, RC says it all.
They do have rc here though.... but rumours say that it's not that active, it's like some dead society here. Sapi sial!

So for a change, i shall participate and put my hands on other new stuffs.

eg. Yoga, Jive rock- god knows what jive rock is....
anyhooooo.... i am not a bad girl, and i quote i am Not.

Though.. as promised, i will update my new.life.as.malaccan.com.
and i shall.

Okie... to start of... Orientation are the best thing that can ever happen to someone. seriously, no joke... literally the best damn thing.

Eventhough the starting part of it may be S.A.P.I and K.E.N.E sial.... but.. the outcome when you're actually becoming muka tebal, and break free- as in start talking and making friends with everyone.. and the best part is.

When the right moment comes, and you met the right cliques, you'll be like the happiest human ever lived.

So as the story goes, me... loner, sober, no one to hang out, no one to talk to.
p.s.- even when i got a bad sore throat, that whenever i speak, i feel like i thousand knives are cutting through my throat, and i can still talk. That says it all... talking is like a freaking passion that i cant live without.
And when it was the first day of orientation, no one was talking... the Orientation Committee(OC) was practically, and literally begging us to make some noise. Even a simple reply, yes or no will satisfy their ravenous for our replies.
So as i said, no one made a sound, tak mungkinlah i seorang seorang, jerit. out of 2000 over freshies, i'll be the ODD. Though it makes sense when i'm in Klang, but in here... when i was here. I was a whole new amandaleesiuchern.

But lucky for me... mummy and daddy and verny and stef was still here. So my first day ain't that bad, instead of makaning with the awkward and shy people there, i was jonker-ing.

AND I MUST SAY...I LOVE ROJAK!

Second day was the best. Met this Portuguese girl, Melissa Mary Monteiro.

Totally heart her name, especially- *MONTEIRO.

Had breakfast with her, at last! A human.... human.... human contact, human everything.... everyone is in need, just that nobody's dare enough to make the first move.

(conclusion: Muka Tebal is GOOD!)

Then, met Shalini the biatch.. she's just a crazeee.... mini size gal with super big eyes and love wearing eyeliners and mascara..... no joke!

She's small with a crazy package.
And damn it! There it goes.. a whole new group of crazy people.

Me, Mel, Sha and kamly. - we were so heap and high when we can make some noise after all the time of being in silence, we were

........................... (speech-more)

Even our group is known as the "Happening ones"- so that's what Sha said.

Every OC were practically eyeing on us. In the good way ok!
From that day onwards, everything just fell into places. Second day of it was the Best. The Bomb. Whatever the la.....

and when good time is here.... time seems to be flying. Damn it! One week orientation just flew like that.

I met this hottie, velove's her name. I call her Love. from Terengganu.

I met this all the time hyped up, Michelle Anne. from Penang

Monteiro, as mentioned. a malaccan.

as well as Sha babe. Nearest to mua.. Shah alam.

Kamly, the quiet and mature one.
etc.

(i need her pic)

To the OCs... so totally enjoyed the time spent, no doubt. And i can so definitely say that again, anytime, anywhere. We love you. Thx for giving us an awesome, memorable, never-will-we-get-this-again-time.

Salution. Standing ovation... kisses.

Never the less, picture time

Oh! I met Rajan here.... suprise surprise. I got recruited into his Team Blue Wolf 4~ He's our Daddy 4!

and now meet papa wolf- TJ and Anil...

the funny guy that sings Slap me through the Phone.

After clubbing, at Pure.

I look like crap, i took out my belt and accessories, cause i was so sweaty.

ohh.. did i mention last day of orientation we went clubbing? hehe...

Pure is okie, but crampy and DJ- 30/100. What more can i say? It's malacca.

Haha.. my group are the only freshies that were there. Told you we're a clique. And sha darling broke her clubbing Virginity. Congrates babe. Welcome to fun and tiring and loud, whole new world of clubbing. Kinky, i know.

Durinf orienation, i woke up at 6am everyday and sleep at 3am? 2? Cause of mamak-ing. You know la... new here ma... little bit outing also excited dy.
That is why i look like crap everyday.
And i have i mention.. i have night class till like 10? 10.30pm? There goes my schedule of normality. Dahlah pic ini, all not ready. Crap sial! But i am not afraid to look like crap.. cehhwahh... Haha! truth is: i am.

There is so many pics of the OC malas la aku nak upload lagi kat sini, so pls revert to my FB.

OMG! i cant believe.. i almost forgot to mention Mr. Tupai! He is so freaking cute.... i am not a stalker, just that i just bumped into him from time to time... like today!

And my first day here, first human i spoke to... was mr. Tupai! Also known as amirul. He is so freaking cute... never have i met such man before. Cute and adorable and everything else is so under-rated. Seriously! I would post his piuc here... but.. ohwhta the heck! I shall...

Amirul, if by any micro-byte-moni-micro-chance you're reading this, pls take it as a compliment... cause it seriously is.. right Love? Farah? and other fans? LOL!

i really cant stand his "ahem-ness"... and i don't even know what does this ahem stands for,... it's just the aura he gives. darns.

More updates to come on this

'A whole new World'

and there's an interview for SPB at 9.30pm.

Excitement awaits. *winks.

with love. xoxo~

i am here.

2009-06-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

All the way here babes.

And with no regrets, hopefully... i'm loving it here...

more updates tomorrow, after my PBM class.

With love.

what am i afraid of.

2009-05-12T13:00:00.001+08:00

Everything.

Busy-bee

2009-04-30T13:23:00.002+08:00

I've never thought that being busy and tired can be so excruciatingly fun. In a way! Ohgawd.... Yes yes... i took up 2 jobs. And it was something that mua wanted to experience and challenge myself with. Daddy was so surprise and irritated at first when i said i wanted the second job. Then again, he can be one hard-core but i can be too. Besides, mom's ok with it.

(coz she don't have to pick me up and send me everywhere, that's why. LOL!)

Anyways, things do get really out of hand when u have your all time-RC in the way and the never ending-shopaholics and kaki movies friends all around. Now, i barely find enough time to sleep if i have to work on two shifts. So please be kind and understanding, NOT to call me too early in the morning. I'll get cranky!

and sorry for not picking up calls ost of the time. And not replying messages lately. haha... Whatever it is, May's coming. His leaving the place. Whose gonna be my adrenalinerush motivating machine now? buuhooo... This suck, my last month, and that's it. I'll be gone.

Though working all day and night can be really lethargic. I guess i will still really miss it once i'm there.

xoxo

i was given Wine.

2009-04-15T01:31:00.005+08:00

Alright. Just came back from Marc's place.. it was an erratic and spooky reason why we decided to make a pitt stop there after mamak-ing.

Thx to Nadz and his spookery-real-ancestors stories etc it made us go wild and freak out after sending him back.

(FYI, his house is situated at the Bandar Diraja where all the Makam Diraja is situated. So u know your facts, no need further elaborations i guess, if you're such a noob; just ask around.)

So i want to use a loo... and perhaps tiny seng wanted a reason to just hang out, we went Marc's place. His mom in the other hand, started talking and elaborating and telling all her own experiences and so on. It was good, something new. At least not like something that is repeated on and on again, like a recording tape.

It was awesome. Scary but still awesome. It's the faith that counts right.

I had fun.

If only i brought my house keys with me. Then, i would be blogging this, hours later. ohwhateverr.. oh! And Marc thx for the wine. I can feel the churns now. LOL!

and Hs, thanks for your car, i had fun speeding like a wacko out there.

Hearts~

2009-04-13T12:08:00.005+08:00

oh Gawd! What is wrong with me...

i'm still not getting over it.

I'm still obssess with it.

I am.. unconditionally and irrevocably in love with it! and him~ lmao.

I know.. it cant be, it's too long already, time heals? Bullshit.

So i bought the dvd that day...and making my sist and friends getting obsses with it too, oh..deva. I'm sry. Haha! and thx to my self-obssess with Edward i watch it over and over again... and still cant get enough of it. whatthefuckiswrongwithme.

But he's so dreamy and ideal and not to mention friggin' sexy! Damn.

I need a strong morphin to get me addicted to something else. It's like a freaking recalcitrant.

Anyhooo.... Sarah called. I miss her hellofalot! Just came back from there yesterday. I went and see...the venue. the place. the all. where i'm gonna spend a complete 365days there, soon. Told her about it..

and she was like -

"Siu!! I'm so proud of you!!! You finally made up your mind!!"

and i was like-

"She just have to say that la... great la sarah."

but deep inside i guess i am too, proud of mua-self.

I miss this crazy bitch.

If i ever change my mind, which is the slightest of the microbyte chance (cunningsmile*), i'll be rambling. Don't worry. But as for now things seem pretty ok for me... i guess the path i'm picking is .....(speechless). Yeah, it is and it will be.

Though i hate to think about the fact that, i'll be having single bed, clean up my own stuff at all time, no one to pick up my mess, independant independant independant, that is why i hate being away from Home! Dad, don't even think about sending me off other country. Not even singapore. But that's old news... talk him out of it already.

So what i'm gonna say is... uknowwhere.. here i come! For now.

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KENT! LOL... from the bottom of our heart.. me jane and woh didn't plan anything to happen that way k! Seriously... it's just fate. Haha! The stage man was good man... somemore calling your name, and beside us the gambling-young-aunties also joined in and clapped + sing birthday song.

Haha... enjoy your gifts. and Love story.. jane somemore putting it as her b/g song. LOL!

That night was simply priceless.

offered?

2009-04-08T12:19:00.002+08:00

Okie, so i got accepted there and they offered something worth going for a shot. So what do i do next'? Where do i go? What do i choose? You get what i mean when i say it's annoying?! Questions existing! Oh yes it is. Bummer much!

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Fact that i hate:

Everyone's moving on... except for some people that love lingering around.. yours sincerely, cause some people just love changing their fickle-minded minds. Yes kent, jane etc... whoever who love pastering me about my problem. You know who you are, i admit it! I am fickle. Lol! There is no 'looking at the brighter side' on this. Kent, melisa all just started the april intake on hospitality... something that i was So attached to last few months? lol... oh damn it!

Daddy just asked yesterday... so since they have orientation now, do you still plan to join april intake? and guess what's my response: i just nodded, smile innocently and say: I Don't Know. So me... lmffao!

p.s. *What do you think of malacca's food?

some shite.

2009-04-02T12:28:00.004+08:00

I've never really thought of how my future will hold and turn out to be.. Frankly, it is very much unpleasant and a headache to even work it out. Literally speaking, I'm feeling pretty ominous over this shite.

It's ambivalent when you ask me that question. Everything has it's pros and cons. So what do you do when whatever you do or choose is pretty much the same? And in every humans, what they want now will never (at least 99% won't) turn out to be whatever it's suppose to be, at the first place.

...For all your annoying ramblings...

My answer : I DON'T KNOW!

I heart the word i don't know So Much. It's the only way to escape and it gives and define the kind of answer i want to say.

p.s. I get cranky very fast lately. What the fuck is wrong with me man.

urgh.

2009-04-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

I'm lifeless and aimLess. (fullstop)

Charity

2009-03-30T11:13:00.003+08:00

So i've decided.. wait io'm not sure whether it was a decision or not either. Anyway, i'll be attenting KTF this year. Yes yes... i know i know... but yeah. I am.

BTW, Malaysian Red Crescent Society, Klang Chapter is currently on a BIG project- Charity baby, charity. It's called, Humanitarian Project (sorta). So Anyway.., we'll be collecting stuffs. all kinda stuff to comemorate the 10th anniversary of VAD43. ooolalaa....
So if You're charitable, gimme a call. You can donate items from dry goods to stationaries to cash to cheque. Anything at all! (p.s. Except unwanted clothings). We'll be visiting the
O.K.U
Orphans
Old Folks
Hospitals
ETC.

So please.. help these people out. Spread the word, just gimme a call.
Or you can email me for Any details @ siusiu_2309@hotmail.com
Or you can even IM me or Facebook me.

Buku-muka.

2009-03-27T12:45:00.003+08:00

So i was on Facebook.
And guess what?? I actually did most of the "test" and then went offline. Ohhmaagooodnesss... I'm so lame and i can't help it. Though i know the test is a cheater, and once in a while i cheat... but wht the heck! It's for the fun of it.
From the test....

In conclusion : I'm vain. Extremely dominant. I'm Edward's love (W00t!). As a human-I'm merely like Bella; the trouble magnet, more like a trouble maker. Let's see... my heart is Pink. I'm passionate but lazy, ironically. LOL! And i'm actually 20 years old, though i'm only 17 years and 6 months and still counting. My disney princess is Belle from beauty and the Beast (gosh, i love that classic disney tales!) though i prefer to be Mulan. Haha!
Whatever man.

I'm off to work! Kiddies waiting. xx~